My thoughts are spinning.

Faster and faster.

In circles.

Out of control.

Until I get dizzy.

They get distorted.

They don’t even make sense.

But, I start to believe the thoughts.

I can’t stop the thoughts.

I just want them to stop but they keep on spinning.

Faster and faster.

I feel suffocated.

I can’t breathe.

Why won’t they stop?

Please let them stop.

I start blaming myself for not being able to stop the thoughts.

I should be stronger than this.

I should know better than to keep getting stuck in these thought spirals.

Beating myself up about it doesn’t help.

I didn’t ask to have anxiety.

Anxiety fucking sucks sometimes.

And I need to remember to be kind and compassionate to myself.

It’s a lot to deal with.

And I really am strong, even if it doesn’t feel like it sometimes.