Exploring the Dark

I’m generally a very light centered person. I’m comfortable in the light.  

I don’t like spending much time in the dark. Darkness is scary. I acknowledge I have darkness, and I do visit it from time to time. But, I have an aversion to it. I don’t like it. I push it away, or tolerate it because I know I “should” to grow as a person. But, I ultimately view it as something that’s blocking my light, that’s against me, that wants to suck away my light. 

I’ve been working on opening to it, though. And not fearing it. Getting curious and exploring it. What does the darkness want to tell me? Why is it there? What does it need? 

The closer I get to it, the more I realize the darkness wants the best for me. It means well. It wants to protect me. And ultimately, it wants to be seen, heard, felt, and loved. 

It’s okay to feel sad. It’s okay to feel angry. You can still be a being of light and have those emotions. They don’t have to dim your light; sometimes they can help create it. They can fuel positive change.  

The more I’m getting comfortable in the dark, I’m realizing it’s actually strengthening my light. The darkness is a part of me, as is my light. The more I open and soften to my darkness, the more it’s able to come to the surface and merge with the light. And, the more I allow my light and darkness to coexist, the more at peace I feel.